Sick of this world

Hatred, selfishness, poverty, modernisation blah blah are getting on my nerves and I wish it would all fade away. Metallica's song Sad But True comes to the mind.

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Location: Bangalore, Karnataka, India

I am charged up all the time!!!

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Pain

Its been a month now that i have cough. It hasnt gone. I have already finished a bottle of medicine. I have this dry cough that gets aggravated whenever I hit upon pollen in the air. I have had soup nearly everyday but no avail. It was my best medicine for cold and cough. But alas, this time it hasn't worked. I guess the virus has got mutated and the regular soup doesnt have any affect on it. I need to supplement the soup with Vit C tablets. I guess thats my next course of action.
My wound hasn't healed. Its a worry now. Its been more than a month now. I guess I need some rest and lot of blessings from ppl. To top this I have a tooth ache. Myself and the dentist will again cross swords again. I hate dentists. Actually one of the lot made me see hell. I hold the whole community responsible :P. I am not scared of the pain thanks to him. i have seen and lived through it.
I have cavities becoz i eat chewing gum a lot. Well, I was addicted to it. But i left it for a long time coz of the cavities and the tooth ache. I took to it some months back and lo i have my first cavity after 2 years. Anyway I plan to go home and rest.

Monday, September 12, 2005

Ganesh Chaturthi

Ganesh Chaturthi the festival of my fav god. Ganapathi aka Elephant God :O :( The day fell on Wed, right in the middle of the week. I didnt bother to take leave. I left on Tuesday evening. There was a huge crowd but luckily thanks to teh KSRTC initiaves of having added a depot to my small town, there are more number of buses to my place. Ofcourse the luxury of an air bus is not there, but i guess the new buses do come with good cushion. Except for the push back thing and some suspension, the buses are good. I dont mind the 6 hour ride. And, the roads are better except for an hour and half which is pathetic. I immediately went to deep sleep. These days, ppl are complainign that I am snoring a lot. Beware of me and my snores. I suffer from a broken , twisted bone in the nose. May be its the respirattory tract that gives me a prob. I guess I will have to go and check on the ENT specialist to fix my nose and throat. What about the ear? yes it too needs a fix coz I tend to get a lil' blood in my ears too. Complete fixup of EN and T :D.
I reached my place at 6 am. Mom was already up. She had woken up by 4 itself. There is always a constant fear my bro , myself and my dad have whenever there is a festiavl. Mom gets too hyper tensed about the arranegments , the timing etc. Fortunately, she said to go and take some rest. While my Dad n bro helped my mom, I was sleeping. I woke up with my mom reminding me to take bath. The rahu kala was between 12 and 130 or somethign close. It was still 10 30. Then, we decided to get the idol first and then go to get fruits n flowers.
There is this regular guy whom we get the idol prepared. This time his painting was fantastic. We got it and the time was nearign 12. Where were the fruits and flowers? Mom wanted my Dad to think and get some roses for decoration. Come on, this is too much of an ask for guys. Dad coudltn get rose and after a lil talk we were back to decorating teh mantap with colourful lights and flowers. Mom thought it ws not good enough. Later in the evening, many friends of my mom started pouring in to take a look at the Ganapathi. Everyone were appreciating my mom for the decoration. Aye! Mom may be our best shot is way above other's best . :P
In the evening, Dad n mysefl went and dropped HIM in to the river. Yes, I polluted our already polluted river. Well, next time i want an initiativ from teh Municpality to have a Visarjan Kund type near the river. We threw the idol form the bridge ala great dive for Ganapathi. Fortunately, it wa a cloudy day and I missed out on seeing the dead Moon. Every year I try avoiding lookign at the sky but two yars in a row , the blody moon gets rigth infront of ur eyes. So this time it was not the case.
I am down with a throat infection. I guess i better end here.

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Poem time

Just love this peom. Of all the poems i chose this. Just one read and i knew this had to be in memory :D

Folks, I am telling you,
Birthing is hard
And dying is mean
So get yourself
A little loving
In between
- Langston Hughes
Random House Treasury - Best Loved Poems

from epharaoh's collection.
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Wounds and me are not far apart

Normally Wed is my best day. Most wed I am clean shaved and love to open neat clothes. But not yday. Yday, I didn't shave. But yday was an odd day. I actually felt lazy. I had my new dressing(for my wound). I think this is the last dressing. I still have the pain in the elbow. Wound has healed. I nearly fought with the doc. But, patience just made me not to react to the doc. I don't really want to take the name of that ass. I just remained calm and got out. Why should I argue or fight when my energy gets dispensed. We are at energy crisis already!! Save energy! :P
I reached my work place late. I had some work with the IT Admin and I went to have a private talk with him. As he sits in the ground floor, I was passing the security guard who was sitting at the entrance with a desk with sharp edges. My hand went quickly and I hit my back of the palm with full force and there was a loud noise. The security guard was on the phone. He just raised his eye brows. I raised mine, gave a smile back and then clinched my hand. I bent and shook my hand. I coudl see a straight line without the outer skin. Blood just filled the path. More of a scrtach but I might have hurt my bone. Darn. I keep getting on my knees and my elbows at home. Even when I am sitting on my chair at my work place, my knees and my elbows keep hitting wahetever objects are near them. May be the gravtitational force of attraction is a lot more with my elbows, knees against anything. Newton, come explain this to me. I am ready to be the experimental guinea pig or the mouse. :P
Its not a big wound. But I still have the pain. May be I will give it 2 days to heal. I think I am feelign weak. Mom has already advised me to take to vitamin tablets. Weakness and vitamin tablets, how are they related. Why do you feel hungry when you take vitamin tablets? Need to find the answer. Is it a side effect to feel hungry when the tablets pumps in vitamins in to your blood stream. Most of it gets washed I guess. In my case, I think 90% gets washed, wasted.
Anyway, next week is my fav festival Ganesh Chaturthi. Dare you call him elephant god!! grr. I love elephants too. And, the only sloka or whaver you call it hymn i know is of Ganapathi's. I think that was the only thing I learnt from my late grandfather. I was forced to recite with him whenerv he used to perform his pooja. I used to complain to my father and mother about it. They told me to do what my grandfaterh said. I was a polite child... the goody one. Next time I will type it for ppl to lap and recite. HE sure helps ppl. We keep the idol(at my parent's place). It was 5 days that we kept the idol . Now its shrunk to one day. The problem of children not present at the time of immersion was the problem my parents faced and they had to cut on the days. I guess the number of days doesn't matter. All it matters is how you conduct yourself in life.

Haan, yday I also watched Nottin Hill. I think its one of the best romantic movies I haev watched and love Hugh Grant in teh movie. I think Julia Roberts is picture perfect. Some quotes form the movie..
Julia to Hugh Grant: Why are men so *fussy* *not the real word.. i forgot the word* about breasts? *18+ recommended*
Julia to Hugh : I am just a gal standing infront of a boy, askign him to love her.

This line would melt any damn guy. I have watched it 10 times now. Still love to watch it again. On that note i end. Time to see some stars. :P