Sick of this world

Hatred, selfishness, poverty, modernisation blah blah are getting on my nerves and I wish it would all fade away. Metallica's song Sad But True comes to the mind.

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Location: Bangalore, Karnataka, India

I am charged up all the time!!!

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Hunt for the ideal gal

People say I am now at an ideal age to get married. A skinny person like me who looks more like a kid just kicking in to college has to get married. I feel i am very young. Also, I still want to enjoy my life. Is marriage the only way to live your life? May be it is. You need a companion for life who can actually take care of you.
I had been a fool for sometime to take things granted when it comes to a gal. If I happen to fall in love, I thought, the gal would easily adjust if she is in love. These days I don't think love exists. Everyone which includes guys and gals are just marrying for the comforts that they can get in future. And, you see more and more marriages fail. I would rather be a lot cautious when i searching for a gal i liek to spend the rest of my life with. I know its tough. If it aint gonna hapen, so be it. People say its better to experience rather than not experience. They are mistaken that if its a well and its too deep, i woudl rather not jump and get drowned. The cost of separation is a lot more .
Here are the factors that maketh an ideal gal for marriage. These are personal views of mine and i will mostly give out the negtiave aspects that i hate:
1) Humble gal with no attitude
2) Gal who just thinks about herself and doesn't care or has no interests in your interests is a definite no.
3) Gal who can't defend herself or me when confronted with a sticky situation is a definte no.
4) Gal has to be a lil' beautiful. I know beauty is skin deep. But she has to be attractive to catch my eyes.
5) Gal shoudltn have a grumpy face and has to sport a smile. She has to beat me with her smile.
6) Moody persons like me need more attention. So, if the gal aint up to the mark, they sure go t the reject list.
7) Gal defintely needs to know cooking. I know little but I am just goign to help out. You can call me a MCP ; I dont care.

I will add more as I compile things.

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Observation

I have been observing the world very intently. There is no dearth for people who befriend to gain. I don't mind being at the receiving end. :P Also, I have been oberving that people who get rich quickly start acting arrogantly. I guess it's their first encounter with success. * these people evaluate success with the bank balance* Some people act arrognatly even when they dont have but are in the vicinity of rich people. What can you call them? Fools in paradise?
I would rather be in the vicinity of intellectuals with less money than fools with lot of money. Intelligence make it knowledge is a passport to success. Success can be materialistic or just spiritual. I have been fortunate to be among some really good friends. Offlate there have been instances wherein I have made a blunder in my pickings. It s better that I have realised much before anythign dreadful woudl happen. I guess some few or little good deeds of mine have helped me not to put my foot on the wrong step. Wrong steps lead you to hell. You must be vary of your steps you tread and retrack back to avoid pain in the future.
I guess I am in a mood to shed out. Am I depressed? No, I am not. I am a lot stronger to get in to depression. The only thing that can take me to depression is liqour which i have avoided for a while. I won't touch it. thats my resolve. I will keep my word, come what may.
Bright things are a touch away. I need to reach out to them. I guess life is beautiful with all the complexities. I am begining to like this roller coaster. I am also lookign for more colour in my life. I want to shed some unwanted load tht I have been caryying for some months. Time is ripe for it.
:)

Ground hit!

I was strictly told to apply leave on Monday to pay visit to our family god. Fearing repurcussions on non-compliance, I agreeed. I didn't apply leave . I thought I will use one of the so called sick leaves. :D Even with injury I had been working. So, I thought I can atleast take one now.
We took the road from Dharwar . After 5kms or so, we were greeted with roads with pot holes strewn all over. Unless you are least worried about ur suspension, you can just glide through. :D At places, there are these huge mounds. Tackling them without the silencer touchign the ground was a herculena task. As I was not at the wheel, you could expect the "la touche". I was the navigator and was trying to tell my driver *bro* to turn left , right, 90 degree turn etc. With more of my talks, the driver was fuming. We reached Yaragatti a small central place. I think it must be a taluk. I have been to this place before. My Dad's bro was a resident doctor in the PHC here. *for people who don't know what a resident doc and PHC is , there are no shortage for ignorant ppl* We had our K T *K Tea- made out of milk rather than water*.
After this was the start of a stretch of 15kms road that was all muddy and no tar at all. As it was drizzling, the whole road *if you can call them by that name* was shining. We finally passed this stretch in an hour. By the way, hearing my cries , the driver got angry and I started to drive inspite of the wound in the elbow. :P
We reached the place. My dad's bro had already reached. We met my cousin who was trying to locate a shop. We (with my Dad's bro family)immediately left for the temple. The temple was undergoing renovation. The dieties were all covered at the top and side with bricks to protect them. This was my first visit and I coudln't see the dieties. Any thing bad in store for me in the future? No idea.
While returnign back, we made a quick dash to Yellama temple at Saundatti. This is the very temple that had been making headlines about Devadasis some time back. We had to wait a while to get the darshan. Every temple now wants to start the practise of special darshan. Also, some temple authorities allow "their" known ppl inside inspite of seeign many ppl waitign for the door to be opened. This is the state of affairs in most temples in India. Time has come for a revolution in the temple affairs. Basavanna, religious leader got a revolution going centuries ago with respect to religious practises. There needs someone to get humanity back on track.
It was nearign 8 when we were about to leave Saundatti. I drove like a maniac to reach Hubli within 10pm. My bus to Bangalore was at 10 pm. :P I was in a daze when I took on the stretch between Dharwar n Hubli. I reached home, had a quick bite in 10 mins and made it in time for my bus that was leaving fro Blore.

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

one is just about ok but two is company.. :P

It all started with my desire to get out of Bangalore. I wouldn't have gone if for Mr. Shailesh would have made it to Blore last weekend. So, I started planning once I got the news. I was lto busy last week but just managed to get up a plan. We were going to B. R Hills. Billigiri Rangana*** Betta , whatever its called, I can't remember the name. I am bad at names.
We were supposed to start by 6 30am on Sat. I played a game of AOM on Fri night and didn't even bother to put an alaram. I woke up at 6 15a.m. I thought let me havea few winks beforfe I can get in to the bathroom. By thte time i woke up it was 6 40 am. I woke up Vikram and by the time we made our move from my place, it was 8am. :( I guess even gals wouldn't take so much time to get ready. We both beat them to that. :P
We took both our individual bikes and got fuel in to the tanks. We were going all right when something struck me. I went beserk and near a circle, I saw a car taking a turn. I wanted to be first. Went to beat that. I beat the car but suddenly I took a sharp turn rigth infront of the car and slowed. I would normally take the turn fast. The car hit the bike at the rear end. I juggled with th ebike and fell on top of the bike. I wasnt hurt but had a few scratches near the neck. I also hurt my left knee. I knew it was my mistake but still went ahead and gave a few words fo advice to the poor driver. I also had a few words fo advise to some chicks inside the car. :P I left all confident but how did this silly thing happen. These days I am driving rather carelessly. I am not able to guage vehicle s coming at the sides. Comign to the bike trip, we startd at 10 am.
We had a few stops before we reached Shivasamudra. Shivasamudra plan was made along the way. The falls, Gaganachukki is at its splendid best. Never seen a falls with so much water. We went down ispite of the warnign board. I guess its foolish not to head instructions. We were foolish in short!! :P I went down inspite of the pain in my legs. That tells you so much of my resolve , grit and determination. :P Just touched the falls and came back. We had some nellikai ( in kannada). I dont have the patience to search that word in English. May be they are called gooseberries. Had some cucumber too to get off the hunger. Then we reached Kollegal and had lunch.
After lunch, we started to move to B R hills. The wide roads now turnd narrow and we were passign many villages. The roads were bad with sand and mud on them and occasional pits. I was negotiataign a turn near a village beside Yalandur that I saw a Qualis come. I was goign at 20-30 kms /hour. I applied both my brakes. My front brakes are strong and the bike locked up at the front and i slid ala MotoGP style. Only difference beign i was not dressed to the occassion. I got up and the first thign i saw was blood hittign the ground. I was hurt in the elbow. I clinched my elbow and saw there was no blood comig out of the elbow. It was likea hole that has been punched in to the elbow. The blood was actualy comign form my palms. Some stones had got embedded deep inside the palms. I managed to stop the engine. Some villagers gathered and took me to a nearby hut. I washed my own wound with water and removed unwanted stones and mud of the wound with my hands. I am the next Rambo. Holllywood , are you readign this? :) One of the villagers escorted me, Virkam and Harshad to the nearby doc. The private doc was nowhre to be seen. Then, some more people advised me to the govt clinic. I wanted t go to a PHC itself. I am very much for a Govt hospital and I think these are the very instances govt. shoudl be lauded for its efforts to put money in to the health secotor. Am i beign too self centred? Yes I am. But, i think these PHC and PHU are helpful to the village community. But for them , i am able to use my left arm. There was no doctor in teh PHC and the compounder dressed my wound. I asked for a anti- tetanus shot. It was out of stock. He said he will give pain killers. Liek a hero I said forget it. I can with stand the pain. It was a grave mistake. He was ready to give me an analgesic injection . I went to give him money and he declined. May be he was a trifle shy to take it in the open or he might be an honest guy. Though I was in pain, I just started my bike and went ahead with our journey.
We reached B R Hills at around 6 pm. We started scouting for a place to spend the night. Its better advised to book the PWD inspection bungalow or the forest department Inspection Bungalow. The forest department IB is at a picturesque location.
We got 3 rooms thanks to my wound. We went to the temple. The cloud was on us and there was drizzle and the whole area was misty. After visiting the temple, we had dinner. We ate only dosas. Mysefl n Vikram went back to sleep while the other went for a walk. The pain was becoming a nuisance. I was keeping my cool even though i was gettin irritated by the minute. I went and hit the bed. There was no mattresss and the cot made of wood was hard. I managed to get a few winks. *Vikram says I was snorign loudly like a Lion.. do they snore? ;)*
We got up early morn by 6 30 am and went for a walk excedpt Vikram teh laziest guy in the group. We also had a lot fo snaps. Harshad n Rohit being the two phtographers grapping with the equipment and talking aperture, over expoure, underexposed etc. Man, exposure shoudl be totally banned or heard after 11pm. :P It was a nice walk aroudn the lake. We came back and got ourselves ready to return back. Whie retuirnign We stopped by at Kollegal. I got my anti tetanus shots and also got osme pain killers and anit biotics . After that just before Malavalli, Harshad had a flat tyre. We had no idea how to remove the wheel. With great difficult we removed it and then both Vikram and Harshad went to get it fixed. They took a full 1 hour and I took a short nap coz I was feeling the pain and also a lil sleepy thanks to the medicine. They got the wheel back and the most difficult part was fixign the wheel. Whil ei worked with just one hand, both Vikram and Harshad had 2 each. We managed to put the wheel in place and readched Malavalli by 5pm. By that time, Rohit n Ram had already left for Bangalore. We asked them to continue as we were terribly hungry,. We hadnt had any lunch. We had dosas again. We finally reached Blore by 9pm. Eventful journey overall. I came back with a bruised arm with a couple of cracks in the bone.
Moral of the journey: Never ever use front brakes on village roads that are badly asphalted.